"I looked at the carpet, stained red with the blood my husband had just thrown up. In that moment, I made up my mind. Ignoring Jonathan’s wishes, I called an ambulance. Even in his weakened state, he glared at me with deep annoyance as I dialled 999."

 

In October 2019, Thelma Ainsworth’s life changed forever. Her husband, Jonathan, came home early from work saying he needed to go to the hospital. Later that evening, tests revealed the unthinkable: Jonathan had cancer. Three weeks later, he was gone.

 

From the moment of Jonathan’s diagnosis, Thelma’s world rapidly fell apart. The life she knew was ripped away, replaced by one she couldn’t have imagined – and definitely didn’t want.

 

As she navigates the shockwaves of her husband’s illness and sudden, devastating loss, Thelma is forced to confront hard truths about herself, her marriage, and the people around her. Grief becomes a mirror, exposing fractures, regrets, and vulnerabilities she can no longer ignore.

 

Can she find a way to endure the unimaginable? Does she even want to?

 

Raw, unflinching, and deeply moving, I am a Wolf Tonight is a powerful memoir of love, loss, and ultimately, of survival, offering a searing look at the immense pain of grief, and the strength it takes to rebuild when everything feels broken.

 

The first book in the Surviving Badly series.